Friday, June 15, 2007

mmm..happy day for june 15

Yesterday is a day full of joy.

First i got a temp job for 1.3k at my old workplace. Yes!!!!
Second, i got into smu business management. Thank for rehearsing with me Papa Chop.
Third, i got into nus business administration too...
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Happy and Happy

I sort of resolve the issues between papa and me.

Hopefully, when i have $,
i will cut my hair and dye again.
i will buy some books related to business.
i will buy some skin care products...I think i need to take better care of my skin. The skin condition will start to detoriate on 20 onwards.
I will save $$$.
Up till now, i have 2k plus. I wanna reach 5k asap.=>

GO FOR MY DREAMS!

Thursday, June 14, 2007

mmm...inner fats

This is about a date when my mum went to JB.
No restrictions~so i just ask porkchop out to study.
I am starting to learn a lot of japanese language, hopefully i can speak rather well after this end of the year.=>
Then...his sis wanted us to go to Changi to study. So far? I want to go shopping after studying...
Her sis seems so enthu tt i canot turn it down. When i realised tt her sis want him to go to Changi to meet the marketing distributor. I become so Sianz...-.-ZZZ.
When i went to Yishun, i show him a very unhappy look. Then he turn down his sis about the trip to Changi cause he wanted to study only.
Her sis dun ook happy well...
Later i started to realise something abt the reason.(i think i am the hindrance in the later time of the day)
When we finished studying(me and porkchop), her sis want to meet us for dinner.
We went to a jap resturant tt her sis recommend to us. The food is nice...=>
They ordered a set meal but i just ordered a plate of beef.
I dun remember what exactly we had talked abt but...
i asked something like "will you be full?"
then her sis said"you have the cheek to ask someone this q?"
Well...i just eat a plate of beef. -.- i dun wanna burn a pocket in his wallet. He got to pay the bill later. Somemore, he treated me NYDC just now...Haiz.
then porkchop defended me by saying tt i got small appetitite.
Then i kana shot by her tt i got pale because i look too fair. I should put blusher or make up etc.
Porchop just said tt my skin is good so i dun need to put any makeup. Her sis(do put makeup) retorted by saying tt makeup is to act as a shield to the skin~~~ I just sit on the fence.
Enjoying the beef~=> hehez.
She dun really say much things postive about me as far as concern. Maybe i am a person filled with flaws.
Actually, i do find her a nice person. She is very outspoken and confident girl.
Something totally different from her.
I rather hide myself than trying to put myself in the limelight.
But tt does not mean i feel inferior!!!!I feel tt each of us are different...no point pondering and wallow in self-pity.
I am starting to like the way i am. I dun feel 'competitiveness' when i am no longer in sch. I dun need to be stuck in a institution tt always will compare each other. I can be what i am i.
SLACKER, LAZY PIG, CHOCZ GLUTTON ...

one thing tt i am shocked to learn from porkchop is tt his sis dun like me in the first place.(i never know or feel it...) Then she change her view on me when i went to her marketing talk. i dun know why though. one thing tt makes me laugh is tt he told porkchop tt though i look slim but i am full of inner fats. haha. Very true...so now i am hitting gym.
Believe it or not....i think i lose 1 kg liao....tt time i went with xiu mei to gym, i am 46.6kg, then yesterday i am around 45.5kg.
I have tonnes of fats to burn...scary.
I am not trying hit 43kg but i feel tt i really need to burn bad fats and replenish my body with proper nutrients.
Time to take care of my health...!!!
This blog is a few day before i quarrel with porkchop.
I dun write things in sequence...paisei.

Life without working...

There is nil income but loads of expenses popping out from my wallet...
Gosh...i can spend my 1 mth savings in about 2-3weeks.
Hehez. It is GSS sales, so i think i went a bit out of control.
I think i got enough stuff from GSS.=>
Actually, a few days ago, i quarrelled with porkchop.
I am so angry tt i walk off from the date. I even skip that meeting with his amyway(network marketing) friends. I did not sms him the whole day, so do he.
Then today he sms me. Well, i think the anger within me did not really simmer down.
Sometimes, i find it hard to talk things to him.
He wants to buy a magnetic bed cover. I told him tt he should buy a new mattress. His house mattress quality is too soft so it is bad for his spine. Then, if he find tt his sleeping is still not tt good then he should buy tt cover.
SO MY POINT IS GET A PROPER MATTRESS FIRST THEN CONSIDER THE MAGNETIC COVER!
Then he seems to be so impatient about it and he plan to buy it on this week.
YOU THINK I LIKE TO BE ANGRY? IT IS NOT MY MONEY....I DUN GIVE A DAMN.
tt time, i dun really feel like talking much so i just keep silent. Then he started telling me tt merchants are viewed as low beings in the past.
Then i feel so angry...i did not look down on network marketing. When did i?
He is really missing the main points, so i walk so fast tt i keep him out of my sight.

Then i go and buy some food(chocz), and go home.

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Started to feel so sianz about all the issues.
I am starting to feel like breaking up....but i think tt itis stupid to break out over a stupid magnetic cover. But it is tiring to quarrel over such similar issues.
TIRING!!!!!!
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I need time to think...
Actually i am not a good girlfriend
maybe he deserves something better.
He is a really good guy and he is better off with someone else.
Haizzzz...
Such thoughts just descended on me out of sudden.
Haizzzz